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Living in the present moment

I'm sitting here having a cup of coffee as I have been up since 4am feeling terrible from my cycle 2 round of chemotherapy, and knowing I have 5 more cycles till October this year to go really mixes with my emotions and physical strength. Having an intense week of meeting with my oncology Doctor and a MRI and chemotherapy at nighttime gets all too much for my brain to process from time to time. I'm mentally exhausted. Only so much coffee and movies you can watch, therefor I draw strength from immediate family and friends and my partner Jessica. My MRI this week was 'stable', with signs of residual tumor. It look more obvious than last time and the scary thing is that it can grow. At the moment its too hard to operate to remove that and its in a tricky part of the brain. Oh my gosh! The thought of going back to surgery means going back to square one. It's scary, terrifying and horrific to even think about, but gotta deal with it when the time comes and count the bl